It is what it is

 Learndirect is a waste of money. According to BACP it will not get me anywhere. I’m cancelling it today. I looked through all BACP accredited courses: too far, too expensive and wrong time schedule. Not for me. I live in Newton Abbot. I have a job already and I’m 46. It’s more then I can bite. Why can’t I be happy just being me? Why do I think that there still might be more that I could do. Is there?

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